Dreams Only Last For a Night

Yet again, another dream that I would prefer not to have. I woke up in the middle of the night after having it and just stared up at the ceiling. Wondering if it could happen. I doubt it, but still, it made me not want to go back to sleep for fear that I may have the dream again. There's nothing like seeing it in instant replay. Well, after calming down, I fell back asleep and woke up at ten something when I stopped dreaming and started into think mode. It made me smile and encouraged me to get up out of my bed and start the day. Everything aches today. No pain no gain right? I'm sure that this would make me stronger than I was yesterday.

Yesterday before I fell asleep, I was thinking about something. But now I forgot about it. Maybe I should have just recorded it down before I fell asleep. Whatever it was, I'm sure it would come back into my thoughts if it was important enough. Oh! I remember.

I am inside a circle. There is an invisible line between the outside world and me. Sometimes, I widen my circle to allow someone in. Sometimes, I pull it towards me because I do not want to get hurt. It is an elastic circle. It never breaks. These days, it is very wide, but I am afraid still. Afraid to get hurt if I extend it too wide, as like a rubber band, it will snap back at me in whiplash. I have already gotten hurt, by someone that I once knew, but I healed from that quite quickly. Still, it has made me cautious and thoughtful. My circle now does not look like a circle anymore, holding some people tighter towards me then others, some more loosely away. Maybe, it will get to that convergence point where everyone inside will be the closest they can be towards me, a perfect circle.

Now that I think back on it. It seems a little loopy for me to think that way. It did sound complex in my head, but now it's so simple, as though I'm still a kid.