Just a Thought

I should put those glow in the dark stars on my ceiling. That way I have something to look at when I'm staring up at the ceiling at night.

Why can't I just go to sleep for once, with no thought in my head to make it even more difficult to just shut down my system and enjoy the dark embrace of the night? Why can't I just wake up because I finally got my full eight or nine hours of sleep instead of transitioning from dream mode to thought mode and finally getting waken up with the very thought that I had fallen asleep to? Today I woke up and was terribly sad. The weather outside my window is sunny, which contrasts my current state of mind.

Why am I sad? There's nothing to be sad about today. Today is a new day; another chance, another spark of hope that could bring me that much closer, yet I am sad today. I still wonder...